...

It actually happened. He actually let me down like I supposed he would. Do you know what? I don´t really care about him anymore, all I wanna do is live my life again without people barging in and doing what they want to my feelings.

Some things;

well, today he wrote to me. It´s like the sun has just began to shine again.
But I´m scared to believe in him, and it all turn out to be a fairy tale.
Oh, if he just knew how much I love him!!!
he´d never let me down.

Heartbroken?

He won´t forgive me. He won´t look into my eyes and say that he´s been missing me. He won´t call me, or answer my messages, or give me attention, or say that he wants me. He won´t give me a hug, eventhough that´s all I need. And I just can´t go on like this! and the more he doesn´t want me, the more I´m in tears, the more I try to get his attention, to make him notice me, the more he doesn´t even see.
The more I want to show him that he´s everything for me, the more I can´t show him anything;
and even if I could that wouldn´t be enough because he DOESN´T love me.
And I have to put that into my head, Now.
And what´s the point, what´s the point? why won´t he just - "Get out of my life"
But it´s not that easy. In fact, it´s really hard, and frustrating, and confusing. Why can´t I get over it?

Bcause he´s everything I have, and all I´ll ever need.

Cold days...

Sometimes the days seem to be so cold, so cold that we can´t even think. We just wonder, about the things we´ve done to make that day like that. And the worst part,  is when, eventhough we try, we can´t make those days better, because the wrong things we´ve done just make the snow fall down, on and on..
and when we stop, look back and regret, we realize, that just regretting isn´t enough.

And when we´re feeling like this, there´s no point in trying to explain it to other people, because no matter how hard you try, they just won´t understand, ...
So, what to do? Let the snow fall, let your fingers get red, let your head spin round, let the time make this cold moment, melt as the days go by...

Mitose e Meiose

Como uma boa aluna de Agronomia, preciso estudar para a prova de Morfologia. ;)